I did it! I went to the dentist today. I made it, no panic attack to speak of. For some reason once I started to do this mom thing I also started a "put-self-on-back-burner" thing as well. Oops!
But no more! I had to pick a new dentist up here in Osceola for Isaiah, Anna too in a few months. I decided I may as well start going to the dentist again myself. I know all the "you can't be a good mom" yadda-yadda if you don't take care of yourself. Dentists are expensive, have you noticed? I figure I'd rather spend the dough on my kiddos. I just wasn't ready to add the extra expense of a child -or two- to the dental budget so, I stopped going. Dumb, this I know.
My best friend is a dental assistant in the Madison area. I called her last Friday and confessed my lack of diligence. I told her to go easy on me. I figured if I could handle Ursula's disappointment I could handle the scolding from the folks at my new dental office. Ursula was so kind and said she sees moms like me all the time. They don't want to take the time, or money, and neglect their dental care. She said it's no big deal and that they wouldn't yell at me at the dental office they'd just take it from where I was and go for it. No yelling, scolding, reprimanding or raised eyebrows. Really? She assured me this was truth.
I went today and it was okay. Nothing too major. A couple few cavities that need fillings but not that bad considering my 1st grader was still wearing diapers and taking two naps a day when I went last time.....
It's all good. I did what I had to do and will try to keep this up. I might even get good at flossing everyday as well, I'm going to try. I figure I owe the dental hygienist and the doctor for not scolding me and making me cry.